storypaint | Constant Observer (Syaoran/Sakura)

Comm: 30_tears
Words: 309
Title: Constant Observer
Author/Artist: rhap_chan
Pairing: Li Syaoran/ Kinomoto Sakura
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Theme: 10. salt on an open wound
Disclaimer: Cardcaptor Sakura belongs to CLAMP.

Summary: Syaoran knows how Tomoyo feels about Sakura, but he doesn't know what to do about it.

Daidouji thinks I'm stupid in the ways of love, but she's wrong. I know what love looks like in all its quirks and permutations. I have four older sisters, after all.

Daidouji is observant, but she isn't psychic, and I won't tell her what I know. The love she has for Sakura is just like mine, but she hides it. After all that talk about confessing your feelings and letting Sakura choose what is best for her, she neglects her own advice.

She neglects her own advice, and pours salt in her wounds when she tells me to go for a goal she cannot hope to reach. She knows-- has probably always known-- that Sakura's feelings are out of her grasp. Still she loves. It would drive me crazy to be so constant to someone I could not have. She knows this, I think, but she simply smiles and goes about her day, no one the wiser except she and I.

When I confessed to Sakura and she accepted my love, I wasn't thinking about Daidouji's reaction. I simply had to let feelings escape that I had been keeping for too long. My love is the kind of love that must be shared. Hers she cradles to herself and keeps like a gift for Sakura, a gift she will never give. I wish I was as strong as her.

As we're walking down the street this afternoon, Sakura takes my hand with such a smile, and she doesn't notice Daidouji behind her falter, though only in her heart, because Daidouji's grin is permanent, like a mask.

I hate to rub salt in my friend's wounds, but I squeeze Sakura's hand and smile back. Maybe one day Daidouji can confess her feelings and let Sakura give her the answer that is best for her. Until then, Sakura holds my hand.