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storypaint) wrote2006-08-21 02:05 pm
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[Cardcaptor Sakura] Letter (Fujitaka/Nadeshiko)
Title: Letter
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Length: 662 words
Prompt:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
18coda: #7, grave
Pairing: Fujitaka/Nadeshiko
Other: Discussion of death.
Excerpt: Sakura held tight to her father's hand as they went to see where Mommy was sleeping. She didn't like it there very much and she wished Mommy would sleep somewhere else, or come back and give her a bunch of kisses. Or even wrinkle her nose up like she did when Onii-chan was being mean. She missed Mommy and her funny nose.
Dear Nadeshiko,
One of the books I've been reading lately suggested that writing a letter to someone you lost helps tie up loose ends. I don't know if that's true or not, but I'm willing to try. Touya has been too serious for a ten-year-old the past few months. You would be proud of how good he is with Sakura. Remember how upset he was when he learned he was getting a little sister? You would never know, from the way he carries her around and talks to her. It's weird to think about now, but he will be a good father someday.
So, closure. I don't want it, not really. I feel so bad saying this, but I can't let you go. I don't want to let you go. At the bottom of everything, I know there's love. Just because you're gone doesn't mean that you don't love me, wherever you are, and I love you. I will always love you.
You were my angel who fell from the sky. Now you're just my angel. Lord, I miss you every day and every moment. The littlest thing can bring me to tears or pain. The other day I woke up (in our bed, it is still our bed) and I swear I smelled you in the air, the sweet sweaty scent mixed with flowers like the mornings after we made love. But when I rolled over (already smiling) you weren't there. I got mad at myself for getting happy.
Those are the bad days, but I have to admit there are good days, and I think you would be happy to hear that. I could never be sad with you, because when I was sad so were you. You never let anything get you down--not your family, when they didn't approve of us, not a bad grade--and that's my goal now. I'm going to raise our kids like you would, with sunshine and happiness. I want them to grow up to be like you.
Will that lead to closure? Probably more than this letter will, but I'll leave it for you anyway. If you can see me, you're probably reading over my shoulder. Honestly, I feel a little silly. But I'd like to leave you a note reminding you that I LOVE YOU. Always. Love is forever. Closure will come when eternity ends and you are in my arms again, where you belong. I miss you.
Your loving husband,
Fujitaka
~
Sakura held tight to her father's hand as they went to see where Mommy was sleeping. She didn't like it there very much and she wished Mommy would sleep somewhere else, or come back and give her a bunch of kisses. Or even wrinkle her nose up like she did when Onii-chan was being mean. She missed Mommy and her funny nose.
Daddy brought a letter with him and she watched him as he stepped apart from her and read it with his lips. She couldn't understand what he was saying, but the quiet place made her nervous. There were so many other people sleeping here too. Maybe that's why it was always quiet.
When he was done he hugged the stone that marked where Mommy was sleeping. Daddy reached for her hand again but she came forward and pressed her cheek against the cold stone. She traced the kanji spelling Mommy's name. Onii-chan said that Mommy wasn't really here, but she remembered when they put her mother's box in the ground here. Sometimes Touya was wrong about stuff.
Daddy looked like he was trying not to cry so she said something happy to him. She hated to see him sad. He smiled at her and picked her up as they walked back to the car. She sighed and played with the hair at the nape of his neck. If Daddy smiled, she knew that everything was going to be all right, just like Mommy used to say.
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Length: 662 words
Prompt:
18coda: #7, gravePairing: Fujitaka/Nadeshiko
Other: Discussion of death.
Excerpt: Sakura held tight to her father's hand as they went to see where Mommy was sleeping. She didn't like it there very much and she wished Mommy would sleep somewhere else, or come back and give her a bunch of kisses. Or even wrinkle her nose up like she did when Onii-chan was being mean. She missed Mommy and her funny nose.
Dear Nadeshiko,
One of the books I've been reading lately suggested that writing a letter to someone you lost helps tie up loose ends. I don't know if that's true or not, but I'm willing to try. Touya has been too serious for a ten-year-old the past few months. You would be proud of how good he is with Sakura. Remember how upset he was when he learned he was getting a little sister? You would never know, from the way he carries her around and talks to her. It's weird to think about now, but he will be a good father someday.
So, closure. I don't want it, not really. I feel so bad saying this, but I can't let you go. I don't want to let you go. At the bottom of everything, I know there's love. Just because you're gone doesn't mean that you don't love me, wherever you are, and I love you. I will always love you.
You were my angel who fell from the sky. Now you're just my angel. Lord, I miss you every day and every moment. The littlest thing can bring me to tears or pain. The other day I woke up (in our bed, it is still our bed) and I swear I smelled you in the air, the sweet sweaty scent mixed with flowers like the mornings after we made love. But when I rolled over (already smiling) you weren't there. I got mad at myself for getting happy.
Those are the bad days, but I have to admit there are good days, and I think you would be happy to hear that. I could never be sad with you, because when I was sad so were you. You never let anything get you down--not your family, when they didn't approve of us, not a bad grade--and that's my goal now. I'm going to raise our kids like you would, with sunshine and happiness. I want them to grow up to be like you.
Will that lead to closure? Probably more than this letter will, but I'll leave it for you anyway. If you can see me, you're probably reading over my shoulder. Honestly, I feel a little silly. But I'd like to leave you a note reminding you that I LOVE YOU. Always. Love is forever. Closure will come when eternity ends and you are in my arms again, where you belong. I miss you.
Your loving husband,
Fujitaka
~
Sakura held tight to her father's hand as they went to see where Mommy was sleeping. She didn't like it there very much and she wished Mommy would sleep somewhere else, or come back and give her a bunch of kisses. Or even wrinkle her nose up like she did when Onii-chan was being mean. She missed Mommy and her funny nose.
Daddy brought a letter with him and she watched him as he stepped apart from her and read it with his lips. She couldn't understand what he was saying, but the quiet place made her nervous. There were so many other people sleeping here too. Maybe that's why it was always quiet.
When he was done he hugged the stone that marked where Mommy was sleeping. Daddy reached for her hand again but she came forward and pressed her cheek against the cold stone. She traced the kanji spelling Mommy's name. Onii-chan said that Mommy wasn't really here, but she remembered when they put her mother's box in the ground here. Sometimes Touya was wrong about stuff.
Daddy looked like he was trying not to cry so she said something happy to him. She hated to see him sad. He smiled at her and picked her up as they walked back to the car. She sighed and played with the hair at the nape of his neck. If Daddy smiled, she knew that everything was going to be all right, just like Mommy used to say.