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storypaint) wrote2006-10-16 11:32 am
storypaint) wrote2006-10-16 11:32 am
Liar (Meiling/Syaoran)
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Words: 283
Title: Liar
Author: rhap_chan
Pairing: Li Meiling/Li Syaoran
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Theme: 03. lies
Disclaimer: Cardcaptor Sakura belongs to CLAMP.
Summary: Meiling told herself lies until finally she had to face the truth: he didn't love her.
I told myself lies. I told myself you would come back. I told myself that the reason you wanted to see me was because you couldn't bear to be apart from me.
I told myself lies, because they got me through the days not brightened by your presence. Each day I woke up and said it was one day sooner to your return.
When I came to see you and she called you by name, and you blushed in that special way (I know you better than she does, don't I? she hasn't noticed yet), I knew that I couldn't tell myself lies anymore.
Daidouji-san did me a favor and let me sleep apart from your presence in the house, a presence I had missed so dearly. She was better than me at lying to herself. She believed that if the one she loved was happy, she could be happy. She had to be delusional, or I wouldn't hurt so badly.
Still, I told myself you would be back for Christmas, like you promised, and that you would tell me this whole thing with my usurper was just a dream. I knew it was a lie, but I believed it.
It was Christmas Eve and I was sitting alone on the balcony in your room (it was so bare) when I decided I was done with lies. I said I would free you to love her, but now I mean those words.
Wherever this evening may find you, Syaoran, this goodwill and sorrow and love, may it find you happy. I won't pretend that your happiness is the same as my happiness, but I will go looking for my own.
Merry Christmas, Syaoran.
heartbrkhotelWords: 283
Title: Liar
Author: rhap_chan
Pairing: Li Meiling/Li Syaoran
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Theme: 03. lies
Disclaimer: Cardcaptor Sakura belongs to CLAMP.
Summary: Meiling told herself lies until finally she had to face the truth: he didn't love her.
I told myself lies. I told myself you would come back. I told myself that the reason you wanted to see me was because you couldn't bear to be apart from me.
I told myself lies, because they got me through the days not brightened by your presence. Each day I woke up and said it was one day sooner to your return.
When I came to see you and she called you by name, and you blushed in that special way (I know you better than she does, don't I? she hasn't noticed yet), I knew that I couldn't tell myself lies anymore.
Daidouji-san did me a favor and let me sleep apart from your presence in the house, a presence I had missed so dearly. She was better than me at lying to herself. She believed that if the one she loved was happy, she could be happy. She had to be delusional, or I wouldn't hurt so badly.
Still, I told myself you would be back for Christmas, like you promised, and that you would tell me this whole thing with my usurper was just a dream. I knew it was a lie, but I believed it.
It was Christmas Eve and I was sitting alone on the balcony in your room (it was so bare) when I decided I was done with lies. I said I would free you to love her, but now I mean those words.
Wherever this evening may find you, Syaoran, this goodwill and sorrow and love, may it find you happy. I won't pretend that your happiness is the same as my happiness, but I will go looking for my own.
Merry Christmas, Syaoran.