storypaint | Miss You (Touya gen)

Title: Miss You
Author: rhap_chan
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Pairing: gen
Challenge #: 18 (table two) for 20loves
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Cardcaptor Sakura belongs to CLAMP.

Summary: Touya doesn't regret giving his powers to Yukito, but he misses her.

I can't see her any longer, that pristine vision in white feathery wings, wearing my sister's smile and sharing my sister's eyes. She's gone.

The one thing that got me through the days after she died was my ability to see ghosts. I saw people no one else saw all the time-- girls with no feet, old men, and many, many others. I knew there was another world, and she was there.

I didn't see her very often, but every time was a precious gift. I was the only one, after all. Sakura felt their presence, and Dad felt nothing. I was the only one to still see her smile.

I don't regret doing what I have done for Yukito and his other self. I'm glad I was able to do what was needed to keep him. I couldn't imagine having him disappear.

Late last night I woke up with my mother's name on my lips and bolted upright in bed, gasping. I reached out into the darkness and felt like I could almost touch her...

"I can't see you, but I know you're there. I can feel you," I said wistfully, and the feeling granted me a little rest. It wasn't a hard choice to make, but it is difficult to live with.

I miss you, Mom.