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storypaint ([personal profile] storypaint) wrote2008-02-29 10:23 am

Self-Help (Original)

Title: Self-Help
Author: [livejournal.com profile] rhap_chan

A short poem I wrote about two weeks ago. Fictional! Let's hope it stays that way.

On Friday nights I
go to Barnes and Noble
buy a coffee and read
self-help books from the bargain bin
savoring the irony
and coffee nearly as bitter as I

"Good enough for government work," the barista says
sighs and goes home long before I do
there are three-step five-step ten eleven
twelve-step programs like AA
the first step is always admitting the problem.
Hi. I don't know how
to fall out of love.


I glance around at the art students doing homework
from books they'll never buy
and the woman who sits in the corner reading mysteries
about a cranky detective and his cats
since they're not looking I scribble it in the margins
and put the book back in the bin.
don't know how to fall out of love

next Friday I fish it out again
someone has printed in red block letters
me neither
I sigh and throw it back into the pile
searching for the one book to change my life
among the charlatans and ministers and devils
who pen these things.

"Um, hi," he says, and I don't look up
uninterested in the red pen writer
I'm not looking for you
I'm looking for reassurance
in the bargain bin at Barnes and Noble
on Friday nights.

Three months later I still don't have the answer
but I do have a coffee habit
and the beginnings of a self-help novel
growing in my head
maybe this one will be
the one that teaches me
to let go.

hope: it's an important component
of self-help books.

[identity profile] suppis-tenshi.livejournal.com 2008-02-29 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
;___;

I really need a 'sad' icon...

~;__;~

[personal profile] pleonasm 2008-03-04 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
Aww, didn't mean to make you sad...